Feeling quite vulnerable again
this grip of loneliness
over takes me then
there is no one in this world
who could comfort me now
head stuck in some black cloud
ruled by emotions quite foul
tomorrow will be much of the same
accusing eyes trying to inflict more pain
it seems as if life has gone down the drain
speeding into me like some bullet train
She said I knew that something was wrong
I can say the right words
to get her to move along
to imply I will try
not to cry this time
run through these twisted paths
adversity nipping at the heels
trying to shame with blame
that pierces the soul
always felt this cold
nothing to hold
slips through this grasp
with eyes sweeping the ground
don't want to be found
or tied down
why can't we honestly admit love?
instead of wallowing away through the crud
the lowest of the low
with absolutely no goals
nothing to reach for
somehow born old,
yet none the wiser

mathiasthom
written 1/20/10