Drowning In the Tears Of Pain

I hold your tiny hands which are locked with mine
as we walk down this street, slowly passing the time
with both our hearts beating, the emotions increasing
my hands growing sweaty, yet I'm not releasing
I'm never letting go of your love that I've held over the years
I've held back the tears as I chased my fears

I was drowning in the tears of a shit stained life
couldn't seem to face the pain of this life
was I right or was I wrong
for holding a heart in pain for so long

everyday was a battle , fighting with a fifth
drinking every drop as it poured through the sift
couldn't seem to evade this life of intoxication
lost in a spin cycle with no motivation

It was 6 years of hell that I went through
but it made me stronger, the love only grew
it was 6 years of suffering heartache and hurt
lost nearly all that I had, this life wallowed in dirt

For 4 months now I have been sober
I made people feel sorry for me, I was a loner 
Now I've broken free from these chains
no longer drowning in these tears of pain

Christ has corrected what I had lost
I still held onto the vision of a bloodstained cross
I'd lost all hope and took the downward fall
Now I've regained my life, and thats not all

I see through eyes once hazed over with pain
the carpet once soiled with alcoholic stains
I've got a grip on life and I'm still livin'
now I pray everyday for this life you have given

I would be so lost without your love
your peace has covered me like a dove
I no longer sit in and ignore the call of Christ
I just think of How God saved my life