Drifting Through A Dream

Up on a hill is where my Christ stood
I looked upon that dreaded piece of wood
could it be the true Son of Man
that took the nails that pierced through His hands
Calvary changed everything that day
total blackness fell from blue to gray
I saw the world spinning inside my head
to know I have victory through a man thats bled
I face trials, many of my own
I've carried the weight of what I've sown
I walked down the road of redemption
found a savior that was full of forgiveness
told me son, go out and live life
I knew that I couldn't pay the price
It was 16 years ago today
I gave you my heart and you made the change
I was praying hard for a new beginning
I was living my life like it was never ending
was I stuck in the middle, somewhere in between 
somewhere lost in heaven's meadow, drifting through a dream
Sometimes I wish I was up on that hill
in that same place where they came to kill
that same cross where you came to hang
where heaven's angel so sweet they sang
I wish I was that lifeless body, why wasn't it me
that blood spilling off of calvary's tree
Why a shameless man had to die for me
it is such a blessing to know that I am free
I feel like I'm drifting through a dream
I'm hanging on that cross, such a bloody scene
losing my mind as the world passes by
no tears shed, now I know why he had to die
to give life to all, I know I needed it
the simple fact did I believe in it
I was young, naive and innocent
a poor man but rich in love
the serenity that fell from above
it hit me like a baseball hits a glove
it brushed me like the wings of a dove
The peace of my God is seen everywhere
come into this heart, and we can share
spark this fire that has been set ablaze
set the world in a fanatic Jesus craze
yes He did, come back three days later
raised up to heaven, no need of an elevator
on clouds He rode High up into the sky
now residing with God almighty by His side
the time will come when all saved will unite
and I will revel at such a beautiful sight
the day I come to meet my maker 
never dwell in hades with the soul taker
Deceiving lies of a heartbreaker
Satan invites you in and tears it up like paper
I'm here chasing dreams, and facing hearts redeemed
playing out the show like a broadway scene
See this is my gig, writing raps for fools
I use my hands as tools ,
learned to rhyme, they didnt teach that in schools
So I'll sit back before the bell rings
and thank God that I have a voice that sings
I will continue to carry myself through a life of pain
I will look ahead to the cross where he bled, and see the stain
I now that life is a long road
we all face troubles, we all get old
I know sometimes we take the shortcut
but we're right back in the same rut
digging deeper, a divot our lives
digging our graves just to survive
I found Christ on the outside
now I sit on a heart with wings and rise
flying high into heavens, the space above 
a shadow of grace, a revealing of love
time reflects this image of drifting dreams
so then what does this life really mean