Been Four Years now
We haven't talked in that time
And I've tried my best to live on
But silently at the end of every day
I'd pray for your return
GOD knows the scar you've left in my Heart
And after four years
He decided enough was enough
Brought me back to the middle east
To where you abandoned me
In the middle of combat 
In the middle of Al Fallujah
My time to face your memory has come
On a path in the middle of the Desert
Thought I was going to let you go easily
Just found out you got a new last name
GOD the pain
Didn't think it'd hit me this hard
Didnt think I'd ever really have to face this day
Why now
Why while I'm deployed for the first time
Since you broke my Heart
In the same dam place
The Desert
Alone
The tears picking up right where they left off
In the middle east
GODs not letting you win
He's making me go down this path
Face you
A test?
First he took me to the middle of the sand
To face myself
Then to Mt. Nebo
Where once Moses talked to him
Now I stand in the same place
Begging for answers
Why?
Why O LORD did she do this to my Heart
No answer just a weird feeling of hope
Next he took me to where his son was Baptized
There was no escape
GOD laid your memory hard on my Heart
Forced to the surface
The Heart of the pain
Light Headed
I got a vision
It wasn't of you
But another
What does this mean
I dip my hand in the Jordan River
My journey isn't over
But this poem is
At 1:37 am Jordan time