Confused

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Confused

A darken soul has been mine for a time,
since the day I decided to speak only rhymes,
I see how I used to be and how I am now,
I never used to care about anything,
or at least I never knew how,
I smiled a fake smile when you came back into my life,
I placed the feelings away deep inside of myself inspite,
I always think of how you were back then,
and knew I could take time to fight the worries of when,
I realized suddenly that it was not going to end,
this is not going to stop,
its never going end,
something deep inside you caused my soul to curl and bend,
Something calls to my soul from the depths of the shadows of which I defend,
We fell apart but slowly became friends once again,
Sometimes I wonder if you see my true feelings I hide so deep within the sand,
Truly we say that we should only remain as best friends,
but really do you feel that the love we share is only for those that are "just" friends?
You confuse me so much with the riddles and songs,
I can only get more confused when its turned around all for a cause,
Sometimes I wonder of things that should of been or could of been,
but no matter how hard I try to hide I know deep inside it depends,
I cannot forget how much love I truly have for you,
And I cannot forget the lessons I had to learn because of you,
you have been there for me when all ignored the pain,
you have been there for me when all others ran away,
Somtimes I wonder if things could be true,
or that maybe I'm lying to myself,
thinking that I "could" have you,
I hide all the feelings deep inside of the emptiness of my heart,
I keep them locked away, shadowing the darkest corners of my mind,
I wonder why sometimes we pretend to be like this,
maybe because we want to believe that we are meant to be what we think is,
just know that my heart is missing something,
perhaps it is only you, that can be the true hero that I need.

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When power leads man towards arrogance, poetry reminds him of his limitations. When power narrows the area of man's concern, poetry reminds him of the richness and diversity of existence. When power corrupts, poetry cleanses.

John F. Kennedy (1917-1963) Thirty-fifth President of the USA

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