Given Up

You hate me I get the picture,
I can't do anything right,
I'm useless,
Thanks a ton.
Tired of feeling like shit,
Divorce is my fault,
So you say,
You wonder why I'm so depressed and never wanna talk,
'cuz anything i say is wrong in your eyes,
No matter what I do,
I can't fix it.
Sorry isn't in your vocab.
You hold grudges,
Lifetimes would go by,
They'd still be there.

My heads reeling,
I don't know where to turn,
Cowardice sounds perfect,
I know I can't leave behind the love of my life,
My best friends,
Parents.
Even though only one is in my life,
the other I long for,
but never appears
Won't call her 'cuz she should be taking the initiative to call us instead,
Her stupid boyfriend's no help,
Choosing him over us every time.

So there it is, I give up.