Through these eyes I've seen a milliion fires.

My eyes are arrid and lost because of all the tears I've wasted while I cried.

Why couldn't I find the love I longed for?

Why did every single suitor bring me pain?

Is there a price for happiness in this life?

Will the gift of a warm and gentle love ever come?

I waited for nothing, because this is the future.


The reality is that I am here now in the wake of all that is me. 

This is all that is left.

What is left is a heart without a beat, a shell of a living thing.

I will never be the same.

I will never get rid of these scars that I wear in shame.


I gave it all to one, just to lose it all for fun.

They took away the light in the child's eye.

They raped her hope from the inside.

Caught up in this sadness, this never ending black cloud that hangs over my head.

Forever inside myself there is no more blood. 

All the wounds have bled. 

Left in the wound is mark that stays forever in the way.

My light never to return to me... so sad to think it will never come back.

Treated with nothing but contempt and disrepsect, even then she tried to mend.

Time is up there is no tommorow it is now and the answer is sorrow... painful longing and sorrow.