I'm am so down so frustrated so many shades of blue and grey.

I sit alone in sacred space thinking about my misery in love ...

Then when the pain that builds up in my chest becomes too overwhelming to take,.. I remember the absolution I found with you.

Just a snippet in time barely long enough to make a dent in all the chaos that has been, yet long enough to sooth lacerations made by him.

Your warmth fills the air, the essence of your beauty touches every part of these chilled bones.

You said my name and I defrosted in an instant, then you just were and you are the most amazing man I ever met.

I take this moment with me through all the pain, like a reminder that happiness is out there though it may never be mine.

I only pray you never lose that light my friend because if you did I would have to find my own again and bring yours back.

You are wonderful remember that, no matter what you think no matter what they say..

I cannot thank you enough for loving me without a price, with no fault and with every breath you have.

I take you with me through this life right until the end.

I will never forget my small space in time set aside to keep me alive.

Thank you.

Forever yours,

Demise.