I heard the "let it go" speech again.

Give up on him, let him go, and take the thread to your heart and mend.

How can I carefully and happily make him disappear from my mind?

Who’s going to know, and how will I catch myself from falling into sadness time after time.

The walls of anger are forming again, brick by brick.

I lost myself in frustration and madness, but this time I dodged the hit.

I don't want to be boiling over, but emotions clash and I start to steam.

I simmer as I think about how my tears are symbols of my crushed dreams.

I'm slowly dying in sadness, and frustration and it really upsets me.

My mind goes crazy and I'm at a place where I don't want to be.

I’m drained, and my body aches with every new step.

My brain has got to get away from you, and think about something else.

I’m tired of the unwritten song that I can’t finish.

I’m tired of patching up a sad hole, when there’s no happiness to put in it.

Slowly, my breaths start to slow down and when I “let go”, I will hear the speech no more.

How will you react when you can’t reach me when your rain starts to pour?

What will they do when I’m not here for them to look at or control when this is done being told?

Feeling like my girl Keyshia Cole, and really want it to be over because trying is no longer bold.

No worries I can safely say that now I forgive you, your voice once made me weak in the knees.

Things change, and we all must “let go” and grow into that amazing person our parents dreamed that we would be.

I loved you; I love you even if you don’t know your feelings anymore or feel the same about me.

 Before I close my eyes I want to know it was a pleasure that I could be near you….but now I slowly go…softly.

November 6, 2009