As I lay here and write this I realize that I have never wrote so much about one person like this.
I wonder if you know how much you truly mean to me?
I feel something deep inside when I am around you, is it love, I don't really know.
I thought I was in love once and it didn't work out well.
But with you I have found a peace in my heart and an ache when I leave you that is torturing me, wondering, do you feel the same?
I want to do more, hold you close in my arms, and know the taste of your lips.
To be with you I know I would be a very happy man.
I want to share my soul with you, take you places that are beautiful to me, show you my world.
I would be so happy to see you in the stands during softball, cheering me on, hell, I would feel like a superstar, that is what you do to me.
To be able to squeeze your leg while on the bike out riding, the way a couple does, well that would be sublime to me, more than you can know right now.
Do you feel the same? Even if just a little now, hopefully to become more?
I wonder if the reason I do not chase others is because I know they would not compare?
If I were to have the courage to ask these questions or give you the out pouring of my heart, what would the consequences be?
I don't know exactly , I don't have the words.
I am tearing apart inside.
I want to hold you the way a couple holds each other, to have you fall asleep in my arms.
To wake next to you not as a friend, well yes as friends, but also as two people deep in love.
I think I will finish now, give you this and my heart on a plate, for you to do with as you please, for this is killing me inside.

I will finish saying those fearful words,
 I love you.