A Jealous Mother's Love

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    At 37 years old, I was finally given the opportunity to find my real father.  My mother lovingly offered up all the information.  But she knew, he was already dead. Reality set in big.   The last part is for my aunt, my mothers sister.  I was angry when I wrote this so I really do not know if it flows well to the reader. 

    A Jealous Mother's Love
    Veiled from him, Reserved from them, Forbidden from her 
    I am bound by your possessiveness

    Estranged at birth unknown by only eight digits
    I starved for a one true fathers love

    Peering through you, I secretly wished for his ghost 
    And only granted a dream that’s vague

    Your selfishness greater, a jealous mothers love
    Sealing the truth until his demise

    Mortality is cruel, but I am awakened
    By its reality, I am freed

    We were ripped apart by the worlds you created
    I, prohibited to say goodbye

    The tears I shed were for the guilt you shaped, the hurt
    You were gifted my sealed composure

    How unfair you have been to me, hiding their love
    So all I had to turn to was you

    Alive and well, eight states north and seven digits
    My soul wants to reach out for her love

    By fate we were close, but our walks made us closer
    It angered you and I dealt with your mockery

    Salt to the wound, by your words you would disown me
    Shall a chance to say I love you pass by

    Mortality is cruel, but I am awakened
    By its realty, I am bound

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    laydbak1 commented on A Jealous Mother's Love

    07-14-2009

    The deep seated pain and hopeless frustration held me to the end here... I know a woman who went through this torment from the other side, as the mother who kept desperately trying to find a son given away at birth some 30 years before... The cries to fill in at least some of those lost years can be quite loud inside... A good write...
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    dawnjyc

    07/17/2009

    Thank you so much. Bent up anger and emotion went into this piece and I thank you for taking the time to read and comment.

    jademelissa74 commented on A Jealous Mother's Love

    06-22-2009

    The emotional phrases used to compose this piece are incredibly vivid. The pain, anguish, anger, acceptance, defeat, I can go on and on...these are felt through the entire poem. You manage to reach the reader and maintain a level of interest! Outstanding Job!
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    dawnjyc

    07/17/2009

    Wow-thank you and thank you for always taking the time to read and comment. I will be sure to return the favor.

    suezqt7 commented on A Jealous Mother's Love

    06-18-2009

    How moving! I was deeply affected as you shared your range of emotions at such a difficult time. Trying as parenting can be at times, I cannot imagine a mother heaping such sorrows on a child. My heartfelt 'thank you' for the insights you share may prevent another parent somewhere from making the same mistakes.
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    dawnjyc

    06/22/2009

    Thank you! I think just writing this lifted a huge weight off my shoulders. I hope the message gets into the right hands.

    WordSlinger commented on A Jealous Mother's Love

    06-16-2009

    A very touching poem,(( Mortality is cruel, but I am awakened By its reality, I am freed), is my favoritie lines in it. :)
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    dawnjyc

    06/22/2009

    Thanks WordSlinger. The poem is really centered around that line. I have considered renaming it but will leave it for now.

    UnworthyFather commented on A Jealous Mother's Love

    06-14-2009

    Wonderful portrayal of a saddened, embittered heart. Your loss is perhaps greater than losing a father that one knew. You will never know what 'could have been'. Thank you for sharing your innermost feelings.
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    dawnjyc

    06/22/2009

    I think that is the hardest part "the not knowing." But my therapy is in writing so this is the best forum for it. Thank you for taking the time to read and comment.

    The true philosopher and the true poet are one, and a beauty, which is truth, and a truth, which is beauty, is the aim of both.

    Ralph Waldo Emerson, American Poet (1803-1882)

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