Hurt

 I wanna hurt myself today
To make all this pain go away,
To show you what I hide inside,
So you'll know it's not all a lie.
 
  I don't know how to cope with all of this,
It's always somehow all of my fault,
And you all always wonder,
Why my emotions are locked in a vault,
In the middle of my heart,
Where it's harder to get hurt,
It's buried deep down in there,
So I can believe you don't even care.

  I want to believe you don't care,
So when I leave this world,
I won't feel as bad,
Leaving my body for you to find,
Getting out of this worlds bind,
As I stare out at the land,
I make all sorts of plans,
To leave this world,
To plan my great escape,
Finally, fantasy,
Leading to reality.

  I want to hurt myself today,
To make all this pain go away,
To show you what I hide inside,
So you'll know it's not all a lie.

  I don't know how to cope with all of this,
It's always somehow all my fault,
And you all always wonder,
Why my emotions are locked in a vault,
In the middle of my heart,
Where's it's harder to get hurt,
It's buried deep down there,
So I can't believe you don't even care.

  It's so hard to get all the blame,
It makes living seem so lame,
Living without a dream.
 
  I want to hurt myself to day,
To take the pain away,
To show you what I hide inside,
So you'll know it's not all a lie.