Shut In

What do you do when the pressures too great?
My soul diminishing and my mind might break
Pivical moments of choice to what path I'll take
Either way I'm alone and the pain becomes hate

There's no water left to fight the fires
And I want to scream but I've lost desire
To show the world why I'm so restless and tired
Reying on empty bottles to escape and get higher

I'm in self destruct mode so I'm closing all out
And I protect you from me even if you can help
I'm letting my heart freeze over, permafrost that can't melt
And a chip on both shoulders from the hands life has dealt

I want to be saved but there's no time for it now
And I whittle away with the sweat of my brow
And the blood on my knuckles that Hell's fury consumes
So I do you all the favor saving you from my doom