Listen closely to my heart;
What is it that you hear?
Is it sadness, anger or envy?
Or is it fear?

Look deep into my eyes;
What is it that you see?
Is it hurt, sorrow, or despair?
Or are they empty?

I wish we could go back
To the way we were
Before she came back and
Made you, once again, so unsure.

Can you hear my heart now?
It's just about to break.
I'm trying so hard to hold it together
I'm just not sure how much more I can take.

It's hard to watch the one you love
Be in love with someone else.
All the while, my broken heart
Is placed up on the shelf.

An object to be noticed and admired
But no one else can touch.
Why is that I have to
Love you so damn much?

Take another look into my eyes;
If you can see beyond the tears.
I don't know why I bother trying
I can't compete with the last two years.

It's clear to me she's got a strong hold on you
Not sure what it is~I don't know what to do.

I can cry; I can scream;
I can pull back into my shell.
At this point, I'd do anything
To break free from my hell.

It's difficult to go on knowing
I'm the bearer of such pain
Having to sit by idly and watch
All the tears around me fall like rain.

So unsure of what happened;
Where did we go wrong?
What made this beautiful bird
Change the tone of her song?

We used to be so happy at one time
So much in love
But with all that's gone on with us,
How will we rise above?

You say you feel torn
Between her and I
And you don't want to make
Either of us cry.

I thought I'd make the decision easy
I decided I was moving on
But for some reason,
You can't bear the thought of me gone.

Put your head closer to my heart;
The beat is so hard to hear.
My sorrow muffles the sound
The sadness within is for you my dear.

I'd give my everything
To put an end to your pain.
I'd even jump in front
Of your runaway train.

I'd run upon a blade
And let it glide right through my chest
If I had any indication
Your confusion would be laid to rest.

I would pack up my belongings
And take the next bus out of town
If I knew it would make you happy
And able to settle down.

I would swallow a bottle of pills
And slip quietly during the night
If I knew what you wanted
And that you'd be alright.

I know all of this
May be hard for you to hear.
Can you think of a better way
To ease this unbearable fear?

I don't know what it is
That I'm supposed to do
I can't imagine living out my life
If I have to do it without you.

None of this matters anymore
All is said and done
The only thing left for me to say
Is it sure has been fun.

I'm going to end this now
So you can do what you have to do
A few last words before I go
"I will leave this world loving you".


Written October 3rd, 2005