As I Sit Counting the Days

we were only freshmans when we met
not even a years difference could of
seperate us

we grew closer and closer each time
we met
i knew once you picked me out of the
crowd that i loved you

each time we fought each time we
cried i knew that we were so
much more

that one big fight tore us apart
for three long horrible months
and even though we did not
talk i knwe we were still the best of
friends

so many times we tried to get each
other out of our heads and yet
we still stuck together

your last week here with me was
so magical you gave me those rings
that meant so much to you

i gave you every last bit of my heart
and soul well here we are again
your gone and i sit on my bed
crying every night

wondering why everything went to shit
waking up every morning looking at my
mirror and crossing off the days waiting
till your return

and as i cross off the days that go
by so slow i ask myself " why
does it still hurt?"

and the answer that i try so so
desperately to figure out is

you werent only my best friend
you were my love
everytime me hugged
i felt happier inside
when we slept in the same bed together
i knew you were the one
when we laughed at our stupid jokes
i could tell that you loved me too and that
i would never lose you.

and everyday as i sit counting the
days i say to myself

I Love You Caitlin Ann Matthews