The February breeze rustles my hair, as I lay upon my roof, soaking in the starlight.
I pull out your picture, to brighten up my night.
Knowing you’re there, however far away, makes everything all right.
Many nights, I’ve lain here, torn up inside.
Broken into a million tiny pieces.
And it was always you that put me together again.
I lay here, and I remember the times when things were simple between us.
Two friends sharing laughs, memories, good times.
Then I went and I fell for you.
My world, it twisted and turned upside down.
The flames of desire began to dance around my feet, threatening to consume me.
And everything became a mess.
I could feel you drifting away, walking your own path.
Screaming your name, and crying out loud, I watch you slowly walk away.
My head, my heart, tell me to shut up, and I silently obey.
I lay on this roof, watching the stars, and I wonder…
Are you out there? Are you hearing this thunder?
It rumbles, loud and clear.
I close my eyes…and I slowly begin to give in to my fear.
You were my angel, my guardian, my hero.
A beautiful beacon in my dark, ugly world.
I made that world even uglier, by denying my love…
I gave that love to others, though my heart was always with you.
I told myself this hole, deep within my heart, could easily be filled.
But instead, the more I walked away from you, the bigger the hole I drilled.
You say I’ll move on, I’ll find another love…
We’ll go our own ways, and the past will become the past.
But please…I’m hoping that won’t happen too fast.
I love you, even though I don’t know how to say it.
And how I long that you were mine.
Another love, I promise, I’ll never find.
I lay here, on this roof, watching the stars.
I raise up my shirt, and I also feel the scars.
I’ll ignore them, for now, as I place your picture next to my heart.
This is how I’ll sleep, forevermore.
You’ll always be in my heart, my soul, my mind.
Whether you realize it or not, you’ve become a part of me.