here i am again old friend
feeling like a stranger to this paper and pen
i havent written in so long
it feels as if i've almost forgotten how
its like a disease i've created
writing that is
it use to help me through my many struggles
but then it came to a point that i just
couldn't any more
my mind racing
and my hand trying so hard to keep up
but it was like an impossible game
so i decied to lay the pen to rest
but i have these thoughts and so many feelings that i
feel like im overflowing
i have to get them out
so here i am again old friend
a slave, no a prisoner
of this paper and pen
you make me feel crazier at times
but you help me through so much on others
why do i feel this way
i really dont wanna play this game
but
for some reason i know i will
im in it for life deep
forever in your prison
dear paper and pen