Who am I???

I don't like the person I've become. My own thoughts are silent in this chaotic place. I don't want to be this person. How do I allow myself to become someone else? The words I express are only partials. My true feelings stay hidden away. I battle the words that creep in my throat. What's the point?, I ask. My words still never really get heard. How could you not read my face? I stand here in front of you, as my body screams for you to hold me. How can you be far away yet so near. Look in my face, What do you see? My body always making up for where my mind lacks. My thoughts are racing, screaming and crashing. My body numb unable to move. All the while my mind is screaming threatening... RUN! GET OUT!