unsatisfied life

when people look at me...
they don't see a smile,
they dont see me laugh,
all they see is a quiet girl.
life at home is crappy,
 i hate it.
you'd see me laugh,
youd see me smile,
you'd even heir my voice every second,
if only one change was made...
but my sister needs a dad.
i love my dad deeply,
I've had my chance of living with my dad.
his heart is unhealthy,
i pray everyday that hes ok.
i dont see him much,
i wish i would.
i hope i get to see him before my daddy goes home.
you don't see my tears,
you dont feel my pain,
but its there...
bobby knows,,,
when he sees my tears,
he cries.
when he sees me hurt,
he feels my pain.
he even prays with me,
we pray for the number one daddy in the UNIVERSE.
when its his time,
i wont let him go.
ill cry and beg for god to take my life an not his.