These patterns
so familiar
Yet years have separated events

I went off the end again
and here I am
in the same place
I was
sixteen years ago
I wonder
does the face show the pain?
Or does my true innocence echo thru the holes in my heart
I may have done a lot of wrong things
Still the goal has never changed
...Seeking someone to sing me a lullaby of love
that remains thru it all
Thru the fall
and the calls that go unanswered
I heard promises that die in the wind
and lies that begin in the deepest regions of one's soul
...the evilness, where destruction in known
and still the act is perpetuated with a smile
Where the victim goes on trial
simply because
being a victim is all she knows
So she holds on tight
and wonders why lthe ight hurts her eyes
why the lies don't make her cry anymore
or why the highs
aren't quite high enough
I walk thru the door
of unanswered truth
Fully aware of each step
Afraid that this destination will finally be met
...and so sad for the child
I'll never hold again

...I step out of the darkness
into the cold abyss of nothingness
Simply because
....zero is warmer
that minus below