Running

Running, faster and faster, trying to catch up
But no matter how fast, its never enough
The whole world's ahead of me, and I can't see
I can’t see the finish line, I can't break free
Working so hard, it's getting difficult to breath
How much longer can I go, before I drop to my knees

I wonder just how many mistakes I’ve made
Is it too late now to pull out the blade?
How many times did I turn my back?
Will I ever find out what my life might lack?
Why can’t I feel the pain I have inside?
Why must my emotions close up and hide?

I want to feel pain, I just want to cry
I want to remember, I want to know why
There’s so much inside that never gets out
It’s all bottled up, and I want to scream and shout
Help me please, I don’t know what to do...
I cant feel anything ever sense I lost you

Theres a brick wall surrounding my heart
Nothing penetrates, yet I'm being ripped apart
I’ve learned to react, and to block the pain out
It was the only way to deal, I saw no other route
I couldn’t go on, death’s mark was much to deep
So I shoved grief down in my heart to keep
Because I wasn’t strong enough to handle the pain
Now I can’t feel anything, and I’m going insane

I don’t know how to fix it, I’m clueless in this mess
I wish I new what I could do, in order to reach success
I’m tired, stressed, and wondering what life to live
I wonder how much longer God will give
Where is my finish line, what is my race?
Do I have a team, can they help me place?

It’s going so fast, and I'm missing so much
Forgetting so many moments, and missing your touch
Regretting regret, and trying to be happy inside
Searching for a path that’s right for me to abide
I know there’s a God, but life just isn’t fair
And yet, they say, you have to find faith somewhere

But where, when there’s so much pain in this life?
No one is lucky enough to live without strife
And still we go on, day by day
Running the path of life, finding our way
Whether falling behind, or running ahead
We just keep going until we’re all dead

There is hope somewhere along this road
Although often small, and not usually showed
But you have to find it, it’s the only way
Hope is the strength that shines like a ray
Sometimes that ray is difficult to see
Like now, but I know it’s there in front of me

I think we all have occasional times of despair
Discouraged moments that are difficult to bare
But you get through it, and realize life goes on
You just have to have hope and remain strong
Maybe life isn’t the easiest thing to get through
But I think happiness is a choice left up to you