and here we go
again
same old shit
it never
ends
over and over-
relentless
there's no button
or brakes
to end
this
the ridiculous game I play
all alone
sorry
it's the only one
I own
so of course
I play it
rather well
but it's lead
me to
a life that
feels like
hell
and I can't
see the forest
because there's
so many trees
and I'm bruised
and battered
begging on my
knees
for someone
something
to ease my
pain
to love me
and hold me
and shelter me
from the
rain
that pours
endlessly in
my lonesome heart
and drowns my joy
before it
can start
because
no matter
who I love
or how I try
to my soul's
sole request
love offers
no reply
and so I sit
helplessly
searching
obsessively
for something
to fill me
warm me
and thrill me
for at least
one time
on this
lonesome journey

21 jan 01