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You ass hole I was 9 years old

I knew in my heart you hated me but this much I could have never imagined.

I begged my mom time and time again not to make me go to your unsecured home!

You sat in your recliner as if it was a gold diamond encrusted thrown

The love seat had no love for me, it was a seat where many lectures where given over my intelligence

level ( I felt so stupid!).

Many knew I never liked coming to your house especially that one week end (the weekend of hell).

Wounds that left scars that will never disappear and words that never heal.

Emotional spiritually and physically abused by the one man I was supposed to look to for comfort,

Instead I looked to him for criticism and fear.

It was not till that weekend that I ever truly hated you!

Maybe if I was smarter you would have loved me more.

Over such a stupid issue you left purple and black bruises for 2 weeks.

2nd degree abuse how could you have done that.

You were in the wrong and you know it.

Each time that belt hit me you scared me more and more every word you said in a harmful manner scared me for life.

Now 17 I look back on the life I had with out you and will continue to.

This year I’m going to prom you wont be there to tell me to be home bye midnight and I’m glad

My wedding day you wont even be there to give me away, Your missing so much you don’t even know it.

I hope you know I still hate you.

I still want nothing to do with you.

I still hope you die!!

Many years passed my feelings have yet to change, Many said it didn’t effect me they're all wrong DAD YOU BEAT ME.

How could it not affect me?
I have so much hostility towards you.

I never know if I will be able to forgive you.

You have done what you have done destroyed the relationship with your daughter.

I hope your happy!!