My Struggle

Darkness invades my soul.
Tears pour out into the night.
My heart is burdened beyond belief.
With no end in sight.
Ending my time here
seems to be the way.
I have no fear
of moving past the darkness.
I struggle unable to cope
with the darkness that fills my mind.
With the emptiness in my heart.
I wonder how I can find..
A way to move forward past the pain.
A way to find reason to breathe.
To not be filled with hate and disdain.
Tired beyond belief.
I grasp at every second of each hour,
seeking knowledge to find reason to live another day.
The normal reasons are fading fast.
I have nothing more to give, nothing more to say.
I have loved and given till I am completely dark and empty.
I have struggled and fought to reach what? The dark whole that is now my entire being?
I am deafened by the sound of my own heart beating, I open my eyes but cannot see,
the light of the morning upon my window. Unseen are the joys of new beginnings.
I am surrounded by dark and unhappy thoughts. I lay my head down,
in the darkness alone again to cry another river of tears.
Wondering if I can possess the strength
to over come all of my fears.
To make it to another morn.
To wake up cold and alone again.
Filled with pain and sorrow, just feeling lost and forlorn.
Can I bear another day?
Only time will tell.