Late Night Reflections

Today I look in the mirror
and what do I see.
A woman full of fear and defeat
Wishing wanting hopelessly to be free.
Free from all the pain I have known
Free from the darkness inside of me.
Free from the hopelessness inside my heart.
Free from feeling lost and forlorn.
In a room surrounded, sounds crashing all around,
I am completely and utterly alone.
Nowhere to run, No place to hide.
My own thoughts fill my mind and turn my heart to stone.
Will I ever escape the darkness?
Will I ever find a smile within?
Will I ever receive the love I've freely given?
Will I ever win?
The sorrow within my heart
healing it is an overwhelming task,
I wonder if I will ever
be able to take off the mask.
My heart grows increasingly empty and void,
having given it all to those I love so much.
The daily battle sometimes seems too much to bear,
the future seems to dark and my life void of a loving touch.
Again I stand alone looking at the reflection looking back at me.
Wondering if all that I have given is worth the pain I endlessly survive.
Will I ever feel free to be me? Will I ever not feel cold and black.
Will I make it through another day? Will I ever again be thankful to be alive?
Tonite I look in the mirror,
and what do I see?
A woman full of fear, and doubts.
A woman of strength and endurance, that woman is me.