My Inner Self

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    • mizunderstood82
    • things change, time rolls on by, and life is getting so much better... but my poetry stays tha same - more 2 come

    My Inner Self

    My life - a game - such a cruel mean joke,
    to think my one chance has boiled down to this.
    The sadness - sins and pain - the extremes,
    I laugh to myself; life can be so mean.
    To have had such a place that I came back from,
    only to reenter the gates I thought were sealed.;
    re-walking those steps, refacing those fears,
    bleeding over again, reliving those years.
    Knowledge is nothing more than a mental illusion,
    choices are made based upon what you THINK you know;
    yet here I am - where I don't want to be,
    blinded to what all others can see.
    Self inflicted some might say,
    yet everyone represses the darkness I become;
    you run from yours, I chose to embrace mine,
    we all fall suit; its just a matter of time.
    You like to judge from behind your million masks,
    denying the fact you are anything but right.
    Oh but your ignorance will one day fade,
    and you will face the monster you held at bay.
    My pitiful life, you like to say;
    Wasted - such a shame - I turned out this way.
    Hearing your lies, whispers, doubts,
    criticizing, punishing me for being myself.
    Cutting me more, your words I can live without.
    I do bad on my own, I don't need you help.
    Battling my demons, from sun up to my eye close,
    fighting a war from within, a world you repulse;
    I lay down with myself, and inside I'm numb;
    When embracing the darkness I have become.

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    Panaramicpoet commented on My Inner Self

    06-01-2009

    Sometimes its hard to live w/ ourselves. You are very good a describing your pain. Remember that writing is a very good out let to find some healing in the future. Good job.

    emotions commented on My Inner Self

    05-27-2009

    i understood you regardless of how mizunderstood you think you are......nice work.........................

    mizunderstood82

    05/28/2009

    thanks... its good 2 know ppl actually understand me on that level

    rollerderby commented on My Inner Self

    01-16-2009

    Exellent work dear, Everyone has to face their demons, some more than others. But demons can be slain if we're willing to face their cause. Pitty and self doubt are the fire that feed the beast. I too lived in a small town in TN for years. Thanks for

    mizunderstood82

    05/28/2009

    yeah and that beast is relentless!

    Poetry is finer and more philosophical than history; for poetry expresses the universal, and history only the particular.

    Aristotle (384 BC-322 BC) Greek philosopher.

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