this is gonna sound crazy coming from me but for once in my life i found it... a calming sensation, something that makes me sleep at night, and wake up refreshed in the morning...

it came to me first by me being alone and breaking myself from negative ties in the world...second, it made me look at my life as "my life" and yes i enjoy living it...third, it came to me in my kids, taking time out to really be their mother/father..and last but not least it came to me in finally "meeting" somebody special, that was actually there the whole time

we bitch, we whine, and we complain... we want to know why?why? why?...when will things go "my" way and the answer is.. when "u" let it, just let JOY in ur life and u'll be happier for the better