Friend I Don't Need
I had a good friend, she was so very dear
I spent time with her every single day
we were closer than two sisters would be
and we never ever did anything halfway
For many years I cavorted with this friend
Her intent was to maim, unbeknownst to me
I didn't think I could live without her love
But eventually my eyes were made to see
Our friendship grew steadily over the years
So I was totally dependent upon her charm
I was afraid to walk through twilight hours
without her by my side, I felt unarmed
She filled my heart when it was empty
I thought I would die without her support
I needed her guidance to meet the day
I didn't realize how much she'd extort
When she was near I was on top of the world
I gave chase for fear she would leave me
I fought my well-meaning family and friends
I never once thought about what she could be
I wouldn't give her up, I couldn't leave her be
No matter who said what, I never said no
I wouldn't fight any fights, didn't win any wars
No matter what the punishment, I didn't let go
Each time I got free again, I would succumb
Fighting ever so hard, for my sacred disease
I honored her wickedness, held her so tightly
all that power finally brought me to my knees
Last time, they sent me away for quite some time
I picked up some ideas, thoughts of a new way
Each moment I learned a little more about her
I could finally see, just how I was led astray.
But, even loosing my husband, my house, my career
And an extended vacation in prison every single year.
Nothing could stop me, or slow me down.
I felt that I was unstoppable, and had no fear.
She was so very powerful, and devoured my soul.
She had my mind in her hands, and she played games with it
Everything I earned, she owned - destroyed it all
I was a slave to my disease and completely unfit
The final time I went away, I kept an open mind
I tried to take everything in and learn new ways to cope
I put my best foot forward, never once looking back
And this time around, I believe I have found hope
I don't want her friendship, I don't need her love
I haven't looked her up or called out her name
I think I finally figured out, she never was my friend
She was the devil, and addiction was her deceitful game!
I spent time with her every single day
we were closer than two sisters would be
and we never ever did anything halfway
For many years I cavorted with this friend
Her intent was to maim, unbeknownst to me
I didn't think I could live without her love
But eventually my eyes were made to see
Our friendship grew steadily over the years
So I was totally dependent upon her charm
I was afraid to walk through twilight hours
without her by my side, I felt unarmed
She filled my heart when it was empty
I thought I would die without her support
I needed her guidance to meet the day
I didn't realize how much she'd extort
When she was near I was on top of the world
I gave chase for fear she would leave me
I fought my well-meaning family and friends
I never once thought about what she could be
I wouldn't give her up, I couldn't leave her be
No matter who said what, I never said no
I wouldn't fight any fights, didn't win any wars
No matter what the punishment, I didn't let go
Each time I got free again, I would succumb
Fighting ever so hard, for my sacred disease
I honored her wickedness, held her so tightly
all that power finally brought me to my knees
Last time, they sent me away for quite some time
I picked up some ideas, thoughts of a new way
Each moment I learned a little more about her
I could finally see, just how I was led astray.
But, even loosing my husband, my house, my career
And an extended vacation in prison every single year.
Nothing could stop me, or slow me down.
I felt that I was unstoppable, and had no fear.
She was so very powerful, and devoured my soul.
She had my mind in her hands, and she played games with it
Everything I earned, she owned - destroyed it all
I was a slave to my disease and completely unfit
The final time I went away, I kept an open mind
I tried to take everything in and learn new ways to cope
I put my best foot forward, never once looking back
And this time around, I believe I have found hope
I don't want her friendship, I don't need her love
I haven't looked her up or called out her name
I think I finally figured out, she never was my friend
She was the devil, and addiction was her deceitful game!
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