I now know how you sleep at night,
Waking so refreshed and well rested,
Even if we've had the most awful fight,
I know your secret i finally guessed it.

For something to bother you you have to be pretty involved emotionally,
We both know that's not the case with us,
You neither love or hate me,
I'm not sure what you feel for me but it's pretty messed up.

There was a time not so long ago,
When if i had to i would have died for you,
I didn't think i'd ever let you go,
That you would have ever done the same for me i don't believe is true.

I don't think that for me you'd ever take a stand,
Treat me with respect and dignity,
Maybe even be proud to be my man,
The last time i saw passion in your eyes you weren't looking at me.

Here it is a whole new day,
I don't feel that anything has changed,
It'll always be this way,
For me to say anything about it would be in vain.

I guess your probably like most men,
Thinking that since we had sex,
Everything is ok again,
The fact that it's not would likely leave you vexed.

I've given everything i am,
To try to make you see,
I'd do anything and everything i can,
If you would truly love only me.

I used to think god made you for me,
That was why we both survived so much,
That it was fate or destiny,
Now i understand it's your heart i've never been able to touch.

I need to feel wanted,
I need to be seen and heard,
It's by the love i used to get that i'm haunted,
Is wanting to be shown your love so absurd?

Our problem isn't under the covers,
It isn't in the house,
We make wonderful lovers,
As far as the family goes i have nothing to complain about.

The problem is between you and me,
A man and woman,
It can be pin pointed pretty easily,
I feel the love you've taken is no where near equal to the love you've given.

I know i'm no beauty queen,
I never wanted to be,
I just thought that of all the girls available to be seen,
Your eyes should have been on me.

I know I'm not easy to live with,
I never was your dream girl,
I don't consider my love a gift,
I don't ask to be the center just a small portion of your world.

I wish that it was in you i could trust,
Even though i know it's not so,
When you look at other women your eyes cloud with lust,
If one of them would just smile at you you'd let me go.

If you heard me say this you'd call me insane,
Looking back on our years I'm not so sure your wrong,
It kinda seems I've loved in vain,
Most women would have been gone.

You're a great dad,
You just don't love me like a man loves his wife,
I don't guess thats all that bad,
I should be glad to have a part (even if it's not the important one) in your life.

Rest assured i'll never leave,
Or even try to take a stand,
When i feel lonely and unloved i'll silently grieve,
Because no matter how hard i wish you'll never be my for real husband.

Kayla M. Brown