Divided

I feel lost
My anger towards her is my fuel of life
The lies she told
She said were to protect me from getting hurt
But that in it's self is a lie
She birthed me
She raised me
And she call me a bitch
A lesson i learned well from the source of my life
I am divided by my hatred towards her and yet the love i hold for her
I am divided by the anger i feel
The pain i go through
And the mental angers that i went through
Try as i might to fight the past
I feel it come time and again
Just to sneak up and bite me in the ass
And the closeness of evil approaches and creeps steadily into my heart
I try to fight it off
And am beaten time and again
I live this life because
I know
No one else will