I never knew you,

And today I found out that you where

Dead!

I’m not sure of what I feel.

I feel sad and angry,

Hurt and pissed,

Cheated and free

I know that I’ve never

Forgiven you for

Not being there

I wish I’d gotten that chance

I wish I had at least the

Chance to call you “Dad”

I wish I had the chance to watch the Super bowl

With you

I wish I had gotten the chance to

Just hangout and talk to you

But mostly I wish I had gotten the chance

To say “I love you”

And then to hear it back

I don’t know how things would

Of gone if we had

The chance to meet,

I wanted to write a note

To you to say

I know you did what you thought

Was right by me

You did the only thing you could think

Of and for that

I can’t fault you

While I’m still feelin’

Some anger and still

Fillin’ cheated

That’s more at your actions

Then at you.

I still cry when I think of

Everything that I was told

How you wanted to be a father,

But was just too scared,

But that you thought of me everyday

That you had my baby picture

In an old suitcase

I just wish you

Had been confident enough

In my character to know

That my anger was at the

Situation and not you,

But then my lamenting turns towards myself

I didn’t contact you because

I was scared too

Scared of rejection

Scared of you jumping right into the role

Of my father

So this is as close as I get

To hashing things out so I’ll

Just say it

I forgive you

I understand some of your position

And I love you daddy

Love your daughter

Christina F. Hepler