Its better to have love then to never love at all
A saying that has haunted me for five years
It sickens me when people say that to me
Boiling my heart to 3000 degrees
Filling my mind of anger and conflict
Destroying my feeble attempt of blocking out all that is bad

My eyes open
Remembering all that should of been right
Realizing I have never experienced true love
All of the missed opportunity now faded in the distant past
I cant see the beginning of the long narrow hallway
Ahead of me a blur that my own eyes can't focus on
Eyes failing now

My eyes go asleep
First a long ringing noise
Sharp pain everywhere
The taste of ash
The smell of stale air
Silence

Though what seemed like a lifetime of greatest nothingness
Every chapter ends and a new one always starts
I have a lot of chapters to go
My last chapter is already set in stone
I will never veer off the track God will guide
My way and I will always be with God for all eternity