In my darkest days,

You are my nightmare.

My everlasting nightmare

And the is, is…

Your face is very close to mine

Your horrid breathe on my neck slowly creeping lower

Your hands grip me so tightly…

And all I feel is pain

All I hear is your moans and groans

Your taste I will never be able to forget

Neither will I your voice

Your face will haunt me

And your touch will never leave

You penetrated me deeply

mentally and emotionally

All I can feel now is pain

So much pain

I scream out

You hit me hard

Does “she” know?

Does the one I call “mom” know?

Does the one you call “lover” know?

Why me?

Why not her.

I don’t understand

Yet, again

Do I want to know?

I can’t take it anymore

I don’t want you inside

You took away everything

You took away my light

My smile

My trust

My innocence.

I don’t want to go on like this

Hiding

Pretending

But…

I know that as long as you are here

“she” will never know what goes on behind these closed doors

I’ll suffer forever

But all I want is

You away from me