when floors become home. stuck. in the mind.

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    when floors become home. stuck. in the mind.

    black veil,
    slow as snails,
    squint your eyes,
    no more highs.
    miss suzie had a tugboat,
    her tugboat had a bell.
    miss suzie took a wrong turn
    and now she's stuck in hell.
    nothing is connecting.
    nothing.
    i can't connect with you.
    i can't connect with her.
    i can't connect with them.
    i can't connect with me.
    i can't.
    if this whirlpool ever stops,
    i hope i land on my feet.
    said a word,
    can't remember.
    last five seconds,
    never existed.
    my brain is cutting things out.
    im doing things.
    saying things.
    and i don't remember them.
    my words are still hovering in the air,
    and i can't even remember them.
    im standing in doorways,
    and i don't remember how i got there.
    burnt hill,
    designed to kill,
    got lost
    in a dream.
    im getting lost in my head again.
    im getting stuck in here.
    last time this happened...
    i was in middle school.
    my imagination can't control itself.
    id rather be there then here.
    there i know things,
    i remember things.
    here...im a mess.
    im a mess.
    im a mess.
    i found myself face down,
    on the floor.
    it was quiet there.
    i was alone there.
    it felt normal to be laying face down,
    in the middle of class.
    i didn't want to get up.
    it was warm there.
    it was friendly there.
    i was the floor.
    i was the floor.
    i wish i was a fish.
    no.
    wars,
    cars,
    stars,
    mars.
    something is not connecting.
    my brain is doing what it did 16 years ago.
    its making me forget.
    its making me forget
    things i shouldn't be forgetting.
    silly things.
    things that aren't worth forgetting.
    silly.
    billy.
    it's stronger than me.
    say goodbye.
    im going back.

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    Poetry is not an expression of the party line. It's that time of night, lying in bed, thinking what you really think, making the private world public, that's what the poet does.

    Allen Ginsberg (1926-1997) U.S. poet.

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