Thinking Of You

Standing in the grass, clenched hands and teardrops
cold october wind blowing,threatening snow.
Just asking God why you had to go?
Life of losing you is a horrible moment in time.

No words would rhyme no song could explain
the  deep depression the real pain.
The sadness i felt that you never would see
the child growing in me.

Numbness and pain feeling that i might
even go insane.  struggles and fears
broken smile no time for tears.
still searching for insight.

My son born on your birthday will never have a
chance to see what a wonderful grandfather
you were . But I promise I'll tell him about your
love of him and everyone.

Sometimes I cry because i cant share the
happy moments with you. Because i know you
would love them even more than i do. I find it hard
to move forward its hard to move on.

Move on I must clean off the rust and start
anew.  I will alway remember all the values
you taught me.  Always to do right even if it
seems wrong. Always a new day can write another song.