So Many Names

I have a life where I go by a few different names
Jason from school that guy was wild and insane
Jroc is that dude who likes a good old party
Daddy is the name that I know hardly
I hear it on occasion when I get the chance
Will I be replaced at the father daughter dance?
Why do I get slighted on the facts of my first born?
Once a year we meet but only when it’s warm
How many days do I need to dry my eyes?
For them to see the pain when I am denied
She was and is my one and only little girl
Like poker I have to buy my way into her world
Stop, No, and don’t are the words I often hear
Her finding another Daddy is my fear
A thousand miles away, to far for me to see
Her distance is what makes my heart believe
Someone has blurred her vision of her Daddy
I’d do anything just to make her happy
Once it was said to me “But does he know”
I wonder if she does, I really need to go
The faces there are different from the ones here
Denied in lies her path steers clear
When the topic comes are you on the way
“No” is what I was told I could only say
She is only four she won’t understand
But under another roof is a strange man
Will she say what drives my every fear?
Will I be asked in time to stay clear?
Ask they may but wrath they will receive
No one will ever keep my daughter from me

I have been quite for such a long damn time
Not causing waves and walking a straight line
I have played by the rules and still get no respect
Once this is all clear I will have to interject
It will be at that time I will speak my peace
And all this negative shit will have to cease

She is my daughter and you did not do it alone
You act like your mother Teresa on the phone
You have faults that are about to be known
Stop saying you are raising her on your own
You moved back home with mom and dad
It’s been 3 years and still there that’s sad
Lack of pay from your wonderful job
My bank account you will no longer rob
You may want to and try to put up a fight
The agreement won’t change, I know my rights
We agreed four for her age to visit me alone
Hope you put more minutes on your cell phone
No longer will you show up here and make my plans
I am her Daddy and never again your man
I have moved on and started a fresh new life
I have an adorable son and beautiful wife
He is her brother never to be called half
Sorry to see you have fallen off the right path
I am sure she will be overjoyed when she finally sees
That you and your family are who is keeping her from me
Say I am wrong and tell my side of the family the same
I will let her know who is the real person to blame
But only if asked why I was never at her house
I will actually let her hear it from your mouth
You can’t make up for the time you selfishly took
With your alone time inside yourself you should look
Then just maybe you will start to see my pain
Come to terms and tell my daughter my name

Jason “Jroc” Seaton 2/2/09