Seemed so Far.

You patiently wait.
Watch me play the games that get me nowhere
I always run.
Every time.

I ask so many questions;
Is This even real?
How can I ever feel Love again?
My Heart isn't what it could have been
It's hurting, aching,
Even still.
It's been Broken, torn to pieces
By the ones i trusted most.

I turn away,
Fill my time with horrible habits.
I hate myself more every day.
My mistakes, Always waiting
To consume me.
To take me back to that awful place
I knew too well.
I'll Never trust again.
I have myself to blame.

This last blow,
Too close to home.
I want to run, hide myself away
From this pain i feel
Everytime i walk over that thresh hold.

I'm done.
I can't run if I tried.
My strength is gone,
I am broken, scarred.

I need You now.
I know that You're here
I told myself i could do this alone,
I knew even then i couldn't.

It took me so long.
Til I hit the lowest point
My whole world crashing to the ground
I weep at Your feet
I've come back, realized my mistakes
Please keep me this time.

You give me this Grace,
A friend to keep me standing
In this place where I've felt the most hurt yet.

My God, I Need You,
And Always will.
Set me Free,
While You hold me tightly.