Save Me

Your are my salvation, I need you
I need you to save me from myself,
to save me from other, from  others who take advantage and from those who make me hurt.  Since you've been gone I feel beaten and broke, just like a toy that is no longer wanted
I need you to come back to me and be my light, my has been so dark and cold
I need you, please come back
The attention from others leads to the cuts on my arm, but I can't tell you that, you'll never come back.
Knowing I have accepted their advances to keep my pockets full to pay for your return
It breaks me, its kills me all this pain inside, never to come out except
through this slice on my are
I'll tell you the truth though this blade on my arm, though this warm liquid that flows through me.  Another cut means another lie,
a lie against you but also a lie for you
There would be no lies if you could understand, if you would stay no matter what I did.  If you were here it would be different, I wouldn't be here for someone to use and then dispose of, you would be my salvation and we could struggle through  this life together.  
But you aren't here are you, your not here to save me this time.  I'm on my own to suffer through another night in another bed and another bed till I can save YOU, till I can get YOU back.  I need YOU!  Save me, Help me.  Come back to me, I don't want to do this anymore, I don't know these men but they give money for what I do,and of course what I do I do for you.  What have you done for me, why do I have to be the rescuer?  Why do I have to use my body to save you?  Because I would die without you, your so close to being free because of me.  I'm makin this money just so you can leave me because I'm a whore.  If you were here to save me, take care of me, I wouldn't be,now I have to take care of myself the best and quickest way I know how until I can get you back.  I'm calling out to you, can you hear me, can you same me, no one can save me.  Just let me die, let me make that final cut when you leave me because you will find out what i've done.  But I did it for you, it's just not fair, I just want you, I want you back.  SAVE ME!

Veco Rouse