I’ve destroyed my marriage being who I was back then

A man who felt he never had to or wouldn’t listen.

Being a bully and not even know it because only I’m right

Sending my wife to bed crying every night.

My bull headed thoughts encouraged me to be little my rib

Now I have to be operated on to repair the scars I handed.

To myself for destroying me in my marriage including she

We became one she became me and I became her in unity.

I became her adversary by beating her up with my ego

That’s why she left me alone in our home days ago

Not only did I kill her self esteem but her drive for God

Instead of relying on him I did it myself without the Rod.

The blind leading the blind I knew but didn’t abide in his word

Thinking I had all the answers yielding to my own understanding that’s absurd.

Are you destroying your marriage being who you think is right in your eyes?

Or are you willing to be operated on to keep that special one for the reprise.

It hurts so bad what I’ve done but at this time the wounds are healing

Because the operation was successful now I don’t look scared but appealing.

I’ve learned to keep my words at a minimum and not slap her in the face

And humble myself and listen so the tides will turn and then she will give chase.

Now do you see why I carry all this baggage?

It was not her but I who destroyed our marriage