Deep despair, burning heartache, humbling failure. Why is this happening?

Pain stabs my heart and echoes to the depths of my soul

The weight of this burden feels impossible to bear

Suddenly I see my friends have forsaken me

Or, was it me that left them in my anger?

Was I the one who pushed them away? 

Won’t You help me? Won’t You take some weight? I can’t do it alone!

I know I’ve tried to do this myself for far too long

Selfish pride said the work of my own labors would more than sufice

When I hit rock bottom, the truth cannot help but shine through

And I realize You were there all along, I just never noticed

With all I have “built” in my life, I needed to be torn down

Finally, it is clear that I am in dire need of You

Only You can save me. I can’t do it alone!

Forgive me for trying to live on my own accord

Now I see the failure of such futile determinations

I’m reaching out to You in faith that You are listening

Though, I know I don’t deserve for You to be

Won’t you change me? Won’t you show me how to live?

Break me with compassion for others, rid me of myself

Help me revamp my life so I may live for You. I can’t do it alone!