Forever in Debt to Loneliness
I am forever in debt to loneliness
It has made me what I am
And what I am eternally becoming
It has lead me here,
Wherever here is
It has given me insight and intuition
Cold Brutal Logic
It has opened a door within my mind,
That never could have existed without it
I am forever in debt to loneliness
I was utterly alone for an eternity
And in my loneliness
I watched time stand still
Like a single breath motionless
in suspended animation
I sat thinking for Aeons
Reflecting on reality, Truth,
and on the beauty of limitless possibility
In my loneliness
I was free from contentment
I was free from limitations
I was free from desire
I was free from pestilent emotions
I felt nothing
My loneliness was the closest I had ever come
To experiencing death
And when I had lost everything
Only then was I free to do anything
And as Everything was gone from me
My consciousness narrowed sharply from pain into a point
Piercing space and time
Like a wormhole materializing within my mind
Crossing over to some other vastly distant side
From my loneliness came an intellectual subconscious change
From my loneliness came a deep wordless understanding
Of things for which I could not explain
In my loneliness I sat here precariously
Half within the world of the living
And half within the world beyond imagination
I was from what I was not
My beginning stemmed from my end
In loneliness and sadness
I perpetually became a fraction less
Dividing and dividing
Into the deepest and darkest
Hyper-microscopic component of matter
Beyond nothing, decaying, emerging detached
From the very fabric of space
Separate from formulation
Separate from chaos
Separate from all things
And There I pondered the sights of existence below me
And there I remain even now
Forever in debt to loneliness
It has made me what I am
And what I am eternally becoming
It has lead me here,
Wherever here is
It has given me insight and intuition
Cold Brutal Logic
It has opened a door within my mind,
That never could have existed without it
I am forever in debt to loneliness
I was utterly alone for an eternity
And in my loneliness
I watched time stand still
Like a single breath motionless
in suspended animation
I sat thinking for Aeons
Reflecting on reality, Truth,
and on the beauty of limitless possibility
In my loneliness
I was free from contentment
I was free from limitations
I was free from desire
I was free from pestilent emotions
I felt nothing
My loneliness was the closest I had ever come
To experiencing death
And when I had lost everything
Only then was I free to do anything
And as Everything was gone from me
My consciousness narrowed sharply from pain into a point
Piercing space and time
Like a wormhole materializing within my mind
Crossing over to some other vastly distant side
From my loneliness came an intellectual subconscious change
From my loneliness came a deep wordless understanding
Of things for which I could not explain
In my loneliness I sat here precariously
Half within the world of the living
And half within the world beyond imagination
I was from what I was not
My beginning stemmed from my end
In loneliness and sadness
I perpetually became a fraction less
Dividing and dividing
Into the deepest and darkest
Hyper-microscopic component of matter
Beyond nothing, decaying, emerging detached
From the very fabric of space
Separate from formulation
Separate from chaos
Separate from all things
And There I pondered the sights of existence below me
And there I remain even now
Forever in debt to loneliness
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