I look at you and grieve

I close my eyes and wish you were not next to me;

The alcohol pulls from your pours, negative electricity pulls from your soul,

A tear drops as I recognize you trying to have sex with my cousin;

Many times you insulted me; but, my love was blind;

Turning to face you, thinking I must have been sightless, and shaking my head in disbelief,

You never showed any affection, what is my favorite color was; I dare you to know,

Many times you called me your wife claimed me proudly in front of your friends, nevertheless,

 Behind closed doors you knew nothing of me,

Your money was your lover; I was just a spectator,

You were never happy, I tried so hard, and gradually, I was disappearing with you,

Madness, agony and hurt, I forgot how to smile, to love, to feel, I forgot to be me,

I gave up believing, felt as if my soul was wiped empty,

Money was thrown in my face to make me happy; however, quickly it got old,

So did your tricks, so did spending nights alone.

No one understood, you put on a front all the time that it was me and not you,

While nights hearing you speak to female’s right next to me,

 And making your friends more important than me,

Time and time I forgave you, and gave you chances after chances,

I ran home from work over friends houses, dreading to come home; they made me feel free alive:

And every time I rung the door bell they asked me what happened now,

They knew it involved you every time, I finally came to conclusion that this was never meant,

 To be we were unequally yoked from the beginning, and I refused to listen,

 I out stepped my boundaries, so I prayed and each night you were taken out of my life, jail was often

You’re resting place, I was a fool twice but never a third, and I planned my escape, the first page read,

Enough………