Devotions

Devotions to the mind to devise a way to eliminate the heart of its sundry sentiment
The heart is the most treacherous
Deceptions of it cloud my mental
Extinguish heart felt anguish is my aspiration
I strive to hinder these feelings before they fester and grow
I have decided to take this slow
Just admitting this puts us in jeopardy
Does this discourse dismay you
Does it encourage you to run away from the possibility of a link between us two
Could you put past relationships behind you and leave them
So we can
Elevate into future endeavors
My desire is not to promote a hustle
But I can’t wait for you to coincide with your former love
There is a chance for reconciliation
So I am not placing
Faith
in this idea of love
So you please continue to keep it real
But don’t not let go of the past because you are afraid of the future
Again my desire is not to promote a hustle
I understand that there is no assurance that history won’t obscure our link
But conscience decisions will prevent me from allowing delusions of the heart to cloud my mental

A witness, much like that of Jehovah’s people because this is as spiritual
Like that of scriptures
This feeling reoccurs often and often although I try to suppress
It is stronger than me and it rises to the surface
I work this and beat it like a step child
But it runs wild
Uncontrollably
I beat it with bats and bats and whips
Getting to the point that I want to murder it
Whishing death upon these feelings
Too deep
I want them to cease to exist
But they continue to be among my midst
I say I witness this because it doesn’t feel like it is happening to me
Much like that of an out of body experience
Watching myself as I go through these series of events
Without control
I’m not in charge of my decisions
I need to eliminate these ill visions
Visions of us becoming born again
A bond without sin
Ill visions I proclaim
Because it is preposterous
You and I are not capable of such a task
So feeling I continue to mask
So we need to come to the realization
Obtain true insight for paradise on earth
I will fight
Because it is worth it
Don’t desert it
Work for it
Invest for it
Pray for it
Then nurture it like your child
Stop those demons from running wild
I’ll do this but I can’t be the only one putting forth the effort
But for it I will work till exertion
I can’t be the only one with this endeavor
You must occur and obtain
Some responsibility for self
So we can be eternal in this union
If not
It is doomed then.