The rain is fallng
it feels like tears
The wetter I get
I'll disappear

No sun can dry me
Or bring me light
The darkness has come
Eternal night

I've done my best
My Jesus knows
but for my Man
It never shows

He sees me as nothing
Just a goat to escape
I take all blame
I take all hate

My body fails me
With every word
Comes from his mouth
All that I've heard

The sickness rises
The mind grown dim
I'm in the hole
He threw me in

And now the healing
That was taking place
Must start over
From the base

I feel only pain
From head to toe
I hear the screaming
Come from my soul

I have one love
Who doesn't care
My life again
Is but despair

I want to be loved
And be that wife
To make such happiness
For his life

But he breaks his promises
And cuts my heart
He tells me I am to to blame
Though I was sick from the start

To be special
And number one
Is all I've wanted
All along

But I am nothing
I am below
The hurt and pain
He does not kow

I am dying inside
Once again
I thought things were going foreward
Not at the end

I am once again
Left alone
Rejected from all
And I don't know

  why

I know my heart
I do not lie
I have only God
To get me by

I can not change things
Him, or my mother
They choose to see evil
They are like each other

My illness will deepen
And worse I will get
Cause he told me to go
With a bleeding heart
I must do so