Birthday

Beautiful on the outside.
Broken within.
I wake to the day
deep down i feel betrayed.
Not hurt by others
it was caused from within.
Tears stream down my face
with a feeling of familiarity.
But never has this feeling,
This feeling of sadness, betrayal, and anger
come to me on my day of the year.
I take a step back from this
motion of emotions
and i reflect.

I smile.
I laugh a little.

How often do I get to feel mourning
on my day of the year?

Some how,
I find gratitude for this motion of these emotions
and I create a new sense of awareness.
I find joy from the sadness.
I find laughter from the anger.
I find a smile from the tears.

This morning i felt caged;
Caged under a sea of sadness, anger, and betrayal.
Now i feel free and I'm soaring high above
this motion of these violent oceans.
I feel centered and a being of oneness from within
as though i am untouchable being apart of this mysterious dimension.