God has made me an achiever and I’ve reflected it
He has sure helped me set a standard people recon with

For this reason lots now look up to me
For this reason lots have come to respect me

But for sometime now I’ve being feeling out
For some months now I’ve been out of game

No one seems to see it just yet
As my repute still speaks for me

I need help as myself I can’t feel no more
I’m struggling to keep up but slide and slide

Just cause of the standard I’ve set
Don’t mean I don’t sometimes trip

I may appear strong without
But within I experience mood swings

Suddenly lost the zeal for God’s house
Church programs cum gatherings

My room is now my only shield
Indoors is the best place I now want to be

I lost zeal to mingle even with loved ones
And things that once brought me joy

Few keep asking why I’m scarce
When only themselves they only care about

Others were occasionally disappointed
As they still expected so much I couldn’t offer

How could I explain what I feel not having the words?
As tears where the only expression that came handy

Those were my moment of drought and waiting
A time I so much craved for help and much love

But rarely got in human not even friends
Cause all I could say was just pray for me

But many felt I should be the one offering the prayers
Of course on their behave and keep urging them on

These are the cries of a leader so much admired