As I sit alone on this bed at night. I look at the heavens and think of you. I start to feel so guilty for all the things said and done. My world is falling apart around me as I sit on this bed. I imagined the day you would tell me that you love me an all of this was a bad dream and you for give me. Getting so lost in how you once loved me. Remember the day we said I Do. We both had butterflies in your stomachs. I remember the day you asked me what our future holds and I said stupidly me and you. Then in a flash our world changed forever over one stupid fucking fight. And for months I try and prove myself to you that I’m truly sorry. An every step of the way you fucking fight me and make me feel like shit. I thought if I gave up my family and everything I love for you. It would let you know that I’m sorry and don’t want to lose you. Then you get so mad at me when I pull away from you. Now that my heart has this hole in it, cause you shut me out and left me for dead. I try and try to get you to understand what I did. An why I’m here in this hospital. Then you sit and say I want nothing to do with you. Now I have to admit that I’m sick of the way you make me feel. I wish you could understand my Illness and love me again. One thing is cretin my love for you was true and pure. Then I woke up an realized that the ball is not in my court it never has been cause I was playing a one way game. In the begging I never doubted our love but now that I realized I was playin a one way game and you gave up along time ago on us. I can say I wont fight anymore to make this so called marriage or so called love work. I f I’m the only one playin this game of marriage/love I’m walking away. Love and marriage is a two way street and if your not wanting to play for life then quit playin with my heart.

Much love,

Your Best Friend and Lover.