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I look at you looking at me.
You see a lonely girl.
A sad girl with no friends.
A naïve girl.
She’s quiet. She’s shy.
She doesn’t say much.
You talk around her.
Knowing that what is being said,
She will never repeat.
After all who will she tell.
She has no friends.
You talk to her only to get her homework.
She’s smart, she’s the nerd. She has no self-confidence.
No self-esteem.
She gets bullied. She gets walked on. But one day…
She got spit on. She’s upset, mad, and angry.
That brings out another side of her. A side no one,
not even herself knew She had. That side is scary. Reason being that she can’t control that side
Of herself. She sees what’s going on.  She hears what’s taking place, but she has no control. It’s like watching TV. Seeing what’s going on but not being able to stop the madness. She feels no pain. All she can do is hang on for the ride. From that beat down that was given to the person that spit on her. She got respect. Not only from that person, but also her peers. She stood up for herself. No one would touch her with a ten feet Pole now.
It took that happening for the ugly duckling to realize that she is precious. She is beautiful. That she has more than even she thought she had.
You push, she pushes back…ten times harder.
She’s tired of the bull. Tired of caring what everyone else thinks.
She realizes the ball is in her court and she plans to ball.
She doesn’t become popular. She doesn’t need or want that hype.
She’s cool being by herself. Enjoying herself. Having fun her way.
She’s happy alone.  She loves herself. She can look herself in the mirror now. And everyone else can kiss her ass.She got her own. Her own car. Her own place. Both paid in full. Before the age of 21.Needing no man for validation. She can validate herself. She knows what she got and she uses it well. She takes care of her own. She has a good heart, but that heart can get ugly when provoked.Now she’s looking at you, looking at her.
You smell it? You see it? That’s that jealousy kicking in. Roles are reversed.
Now you on the outside looking in. That shoe don't feel too comfortable now, huh?