im tired of feeling this way...
but dont know how to change
im tired of waking at night...
with thoughts in my mind and
tears in my eyes

im tired of laying wide awake
while demons play...
im tired of spending my days
in a cloudy haze...
with a lifeless gaze
upon my face

im tired of hurting
and hurting those who love me
because i cant see
past my own misery

im tired of holding on...
for so long
when i should just let the past be gone

im tired of the tears and
the frowns...
the fears and
the downs

im tired of the pain
that makes me insane

im tired of the thoughts and
the way that they taunt

im tired of the demons and ghosts
that wont leave me alone

im tired of the way you look at me
because you know this is not the best i can be

im tired of believing
and decieving
and thinking
that this is really me