Shattered…

So many days, so many hours

That I lie awake

The moments pass like a slow burning candle

Dreams recurring,

Like stills from the ancient reels

Lying helpless….

So many moments, I remember

The Kisses, the heated lovemaking

The fervid discourse unwinding to delirium

Bout to lose my mind…

Never, ever wanting to lose nor let loose,

This scintillating thought, the titilating passion

Lying Broken… Destrooyed in a mere instant

The vision, the dream

The freedom to love with abandon

Drunken with pleasure and doubled over

Like an addict, the high stolen

Left in the middle of these four walls

Baby, I cant fathom life without you by myside…

Tears falling in the wind

Like blessed raindrops

Clutching to my ridiculous dreams now

I feel im a child, lost and afraid

My soul is shaken as if it’s the bowels of hell

Wishing we could just move to love like we used to do

Knowing it can never be so easy like it used to be

…said I love you, Baby

Contemplating the way to perdition,

And the road traveled, vast and alone

And though I walk now, alone, in truth

I’m dying slowly, the rum and vodka eating the flesh

While losing you, my soul

…And I cant seem to break free